This is my first official blog post, and so I’ll start this one off with a story. When I was younger, I often felt isolated and misunderstood. I was the kid that was very quiet and shy and normally kept to myself. During my childhood and into adolescence, I often felt depressed, drawing more into myself and only feeling a sense of excitement when I was engaged in art or reading. I would journal my thoughts every now and then, but it wasn’t until I heard a song by rock band Evanescence on the radio that I began channeling those negative emotions into something creative.
I grew up in a family that listened to mostly soul, gospel, and R&B, with a little rap playing occasionally. However, when I got a radio for myself, I fell in love with rock music, especially the lyrics that seemed deep and morose. Although I don’t consider myself goth, I gravitated to those goth-rock sounds and the visuals that were part of the look that Evanescence had. I found it theatrical and indicative of how I felt at the time. Mostly everyone knows the song “Bring Me to Life”, as it was a hit song at the time, and was a single off the Daredevil movie soundtrack. However, it was the song “Lithium” that became my favorite from the band’s first album. It was the song that helped my teenage self through a lot of pain and frustration I felt during those adolescent years. Whenever I hear the song, powerful memories come forth of me sitting in my room, playing the song on repeat.
It was during those times that I got the idea to write my own version of the song in one of my journals. I repeated the process with a couple of other songs off that album and discovered my skill at poetry. I love songs that have deep and poetic lyrics that can tell a story or accurately describe an emotional situation. That band inspired me to continue writing my own songs, turning them into poetry and later expanding my writing into other genres.
We all have a favorite song that produces a memory for us, be it something of fondness and nostalgia or sadness and heartbreak. Music can be powerful in this aspect and is an art form that is universally understood and connects us, like food and laughter. What is one of your favorite songs and what memory does is bring forth for you?